Locked Up the Car and Walked Away for Five Minutes
I got home just before 11pm after a long, productive day and all I wanted to do was to get upstairs and go to bed. Great thesis work in the company of a great friend and colleague kept my focus off fitness, but I’ve come to depend on a feeling of satisfaction from at least ten minutes of fitness a day. This satisfaction has become a noticeable part of finding my calm, finding sleep, and preventing insomnia. It’s not even midnight and I’m pleasantly unwinding, looking forward to sleep.
Before heading up the stairs, I left my things and locked up the car and walked away from the house for five minutes. Don’t worry, I came back.
It wasn’t until I was in the midst of getting ready for bed, when I remembed I hadn’t taken any time out today for self care today. So I’m taking my evening constitutional in the middle of putting on my PJs. What of it?
Just Noticing How Many People Have Their TVs On
It’s not like I’m going UP TO your windows to peek in. I don’t LEAVE the sidewalk. I…just enjoy glancing through your windows; you left the drapes open and lights on. Think of it like a quick anthropological glimpse into how you decorate your walls or are watching on TV.
In full disclosure I didn’t do any fitness yesterday. I let the stress help me forget…and I felt it today. Negatively. My anxiety to get to work on editing my thesis was surprisingly replaced with an anxiety that I couldn’t work enough. While closing down my computer and packing up my bag, while driving home…I felt nausea. An anxiety induced nausea. And after so much productivity. But a productivity that left me frustrated that I still have more to do. It feels like so much more.
Flirting with the notion that I’d come home and unpack my bag and get right back to editing, I remembered that I’m practicing balance. Instead I looked to find my calm. I went on a ten minute walk.
And I looked through your windows.
That's the First Non-Stop 1,000 Yards I've Swam in YEARS!
I knew I wanted to push it in the pool…and I DID!
Walk in the Drizzle Around the Zoo Marsh
The Moms joined me on my mental health walk at the zoo! It was like a cool autumn day, in the middle of August; animals, beautiful prairie plant smells, and we solved a duck murder…sort of.
To protect the viewer, and the identification of the victim, only the untouched duck-feet are pictured.
I Will Swim. Reluctantly.
I was thrown for a loop this afternoon and consequently, wanted to hide under the covers until tomorrow. Then C reminded me that the woman who wants to go get em is still in there, and I took her to Starbucks to awkwardly work on my thesis. Progress was made without an ounce of grace.
C also reminded me that I feel powerful after a swim, so I’m here now at the pool. Reluctantly.
I discovered that a slow, enjoyable, end of the day ten minute walk takes me around two whole blocks.
noun (dated): a walk, typically one taken regularly to maintain or restore good health.
New Oxford American Dictionary
Many Of Which Where Taken Sober
I won’t confirm nor deny that any alcohol was consumed on today’s walks. BUT if it HAD been, it was awesome.
And parents; add parents. If you have awesome parents like I do, invite them on your maintaining mental health walk! Most parents love talking and walking with their (adult) kids. Added bonus, parents also love the zoo.